Sunday, July 3, 2016
It's funny how you want people to read your blog when you are young. But somehow when you get old, you just wish that this can be your quiet spot to rant. Well i hope no one is reading this, if you are, why the hell are you here - its 2016, go facebook or something.
My world has been so different since the last post. 该哭的都哭了,该失去的都失去过了。可以说是长大了吧。人生一次又一次的经历给了我许多的教训,而错则让我领悟到了很多道理。you dont say right. 可是到了今天,我还是在问自己 -我是谁。有时候真的觉得很难做回自己。受过伤的人,不知是否能和从前跑得一样快。被伤过的心又怎能允许我做回自己呢。
她说过,叫我找回自己,不需要害怕,她能接受。听到那一句时,心里是温暖的,很欣慰她能包容我的一切;可是脑海里的我却被恐惧完完全全的淹没了。我开始问自己,怎么才能做回自己,自己到底是谁。过了好久,才发现其实我早已忘了自己。这几年,都是在包容别人。也许是害怕失去,所以不敢做回自己,就算现在要做回自己,我也不知所措。
每天的点点滴滴都挑战着这个模糊的’自己‘。心有不满时,有时候真的好想好想说出口,可是还是会畏惧说出来的后果。为什么就是没有勇气说出来。说出来又能说是做回自己吗。
Sometimes i am tired of pleasing people, because they take me for granted all the time. But if i stop caring, i dont know when to stop. Sometimes i just want to tell you all these, but i dont know if you have the patience for me.